Monday, January 30

A Month

Well, Saturday was officially the four week mark since the miscarriage. That means that a month has passed (it seems like it happened yesterday), and within the next few weeks I should expect a period. Yay! (Seriously, I can't wait to get one!) I am a little apprehensive though, because I recently heard that another girl who had a miscarriage didn't get her period for almost 6 months! Being apprehensive could potentially delay the oncoming of my period though, so I'm trying to just trust God to make it happen when it's supposed to happen. Isn't it odd the things we can trust God with? Like, as if He truly wants to hear about my period. But He created me, so He must care about those things too! I just want to know that my body is functioning as it is supposed to. There's nothing quite like peace of mind.

5 comments :

Brandi said...

You are in my prayers Heather!

Amber said...

Yes, God does care & he hears each and everyone of our prayers ~ no matter what they are about :) You have been courageous & strong throughout this all....I admire that Heather!

Janelle said...

Hi Heather - I hope it's ok for me to post this here...I'm always scared that I'm not being sensitive enough to those who have lost something so precious. But I know how badly you want to begin to try again to have a baby...and I found this on my friend Tanya's blog today...I'm hoping it will be of some encouragement! sending hugs!

A Different Childpoem
by Pandora MacMillian
People notice
There's a special glow around you.
You grow surrounded by love,
Never doubting you are wanted;
Only look at the pride and joy
In your mother and father's eyes.
And if sometimes between the smiles
There's a trace of tears,
One day you'll understand.
You'll understand
There was once another child
A different child
Who was in their hopes and dreams.
That child will never outgrow the baby clothes
That child will never keep them up at night
In fact, that child will never be any trouble at all.
Except sometimes, in a silent moment,
When mother and father miss so much
That different child.
May hope and love wrap you warmly
And may you learn the lesson forever
How infinitely precious
How infinitely fragile
Is this life on earth.
One day, as a young man or woman
You may see another mother's tears
Another father's silent grief
Then you, and you alone
Will understand
And offer the greatest comfort.
When all hope seems lost,
You will tell them
With great compassion,
"I know how you feel.
I'm only here
Because my mother tried again."

Heather said...

Thanks Janelle!

Nin said...

I just finished reading your entire blog. Wow, what a hard journey you've been on. To go through all the anticipations of being pregnant and suddenly have it all taken away. You are truly an amazing woman for walking so strong in the Lord, and finding your rest and peace in Him. I have been so encouraged to read your blog, and to hear you walking in victory over your fears and sorrows. Praise God that He is able to fully restore and heal even the most broken heart. You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that God continues to rock you in His arms. Peace and rest, and many blessings.
I have recently found out to be pregnant. This will be the first for me and my husband, although I had a child before we married. It was so amazing to read all your posts of your pregnancy. You were full of such joy and anticipation, it was so fun to read! I hope and pray that joy and anticipation can return to you both soon, when God blesses you with another. Much love,
-Nin